I'm home and ALIVE!!

I have to say it feels good to be alive!!
I just spent 13 days in the hospital due to my depression and attempting suicide. 3 of those days were in ICU. I guess I died once but they brought me back. This was very scary because I have not done this before.
It's strange that I can offer help to others who need it but I don't help myself. I need to rethink that!
I'm back, I'm here, there's got to be a reason:)...

Oh what a weekend!

Oh what a weekend!We held a yard sale this weekend:) It really was alot of fun. Lori and I decided while it was going on that maybe we should get some work around the farm done. Well, I can't do it right now( the dr just found out I have a protruding disc in my low back, hence the intense pain from it pressing on a nerve) and Lori can't do it because she has health issues too, so we called out the troops:)

It was great!! It's amazing what a bar-b-que will get accomplished. We got the outs...

Time to mow the grass...and sneeze:)

Time to mow the grass...and sneeze:)I guess todays the day I mow my grass. I try to put it off as much as I can because of my allergies. If you can picture this-I'm mowing along and start sneezing my head off. Not too funny right? Well, I close my eyes when I sneeze and that doesn't work when driving a rider. I sneezed so many times in a row that I actually drove up and over a tree sapling before I knew what happened, really I did!! It wouldn't have been so bad but instead of just driving off...

Another Beautiful Day!!

Another Beautiful Day!!It is another beautiful day in Western NY. The sun is shining and it's about 75 breezey degrees! I'm enjoying weeding my garden and watching my crazy birds:) They can really make me laugh! Hopefully I'll be able to get some other things done also but for now I'm just gonna enjoy the day....

My first day on MG

My first day on MGWell, today is the first day I have figured out the journal:) I posted my request and sent all my paperwork in so hopefully I can get some help. I know that I'm not the worst on here medically wise or financially and I understand that.
I just know that the only way I can help myself get the medical treatments I need is to stop having to depend on others. They are great, don't get me wrong, but they do have lives of their own so it's very hard for them to rearrange their schedu...