its been awhile again....

so it has been a while, i had been homeless for a while and now have
access again. i have gotten a job as a house keeper at a hotel here,
it is very part time but is just enough to pay the rent and
necessitie...

update

well, tomorrow i go to court, it seems that a bad check i wrote for groceries when all the chaos began with the kids dad leaving us 5 years ago, has caused me to be charged with theft and i had no idea there has been a warrant for my arrest for years...its completely crazy. ive never been in trouble with the law and now this. a check that was written for groceries....oh well, i did it to feed my kids. im praying they let me work out a payment plan since im on unemployment right now. when does it...

waking up sad...

nights like this come often unfortunately. sleep is not a friend of mine it seems....every thing was finally getting in place for us before the flood and here we are a little over a year later and it seems nothing is near what it was. my parents are still homeless from losing their home in the flood, they had rented that house for 11 years..it was home. i have actually had dreams about going home with my parents and all that we knew and i miss all of it. its hard to explain how one can miss a pl...

August 27th

So today we are experiencing a lot of flash flooding, after having like 3 days straight of rain. it brings back memories and feelings from last years massive flood that are hard to feel. The guilt, the sadness, the loss, all of it. Things still havent gotten much better since then. I was almost in tears and I felt numb all at the same time watching the hours and hours of local news reporters showing the flooding and talking about Palo getting sand bags ready, praying for them and for us in ce...