Are you my friend?

Who are you? Are you my friend?? Should I get close to you? or should I keep you at distance? for I have been known to fail ...Who are you ? Are you my friend?? Do I dare let you into my world? Do you really want to know me? Or will you just walk away? Who are you? Are you my friendtr?? Can I call you by your name? Can I truly be honest with you?Please Tell me, for I need and want you as my friend.
 
This is a poem I wrote last month. Have been going through major depression and just tryi...

Where have I been?

I am sorry that I have been gone but I had to get away~  In the past couple of weeks I have been fighting major depression~  A time to try and fight for life.
 The bills, people just about everything is wearing me out~ I am doing my best to get better but it is a long battle ahead.  I even gave up on one of my shows that I was supposed to set up at because I was just to burned out.
 I have been doing shows about every 2 to 3 days.  I clean my cousins house. I took...

To those who Find Fault~

  Today I am just writing from my heart and knowing that  God knows my heart ache.
 There are those who believe that putting your story out on the computer is wrong and you shouldn't have to do that~
What I feel is wrong is when a community or a Church knows you are needing assistance and they turn the other way~
Before I came here to Microgiving my story was in the paper because of baloons that was sent up to God to save our home by my 10 year old daughter.  I had a Churc...

Should we Keep moving Forward~

THe answer is yes~~~~~  Yes, there are many bad days~  But, who cares?  The bad days and the struggles is what gives us strength to keep moving forward.  There is no choice other than to take each challenge and work with it and come out in the end with a smile on our face knowing that we did succeed.
I encourage everyone who reads this to never give up.  I know someone who almost did and was ready to walk away from it all and say no more.  That person was me...
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Why do I try so hard and Never give Up~

  I am determined that no matter what comes into my path that I will be able to be a survivor.  I guess I learned that when a big Church in my area that I was a member of turned their back on my family in the time of most need~
To sit and listen to people that think they know everything and yet speak no knowledge and to make no sense in their ways just drives me crazy.  I don't want to be that way~ 
I don't want a lot in life~  I have these dreams that I hope I can ful...

Keeping the Faith

Even though yesterday was the worse sale ever I am going to keep the faith and hope that things will get better~
So many people ask me why I don't get a real job.  This is a real job.  I hunt for things to sell, price them, wrap them so they won't get broke, load them, unload them, set them up for display, try to sell, pack back in boxes and load up again.  And yet when you try to sell if something is 50 cents they want it for 25 cents.
I believe with in my heart that I work jus...

Does Anyone read these Journal Entries?

I always wondered if anyone reads these journals?  And if you do is your life like mine~  Sometimes I feel that I am just being swept up by the wind and taken from here to there~  Never knowing where I will stop~ The amazing feeling of having so many hardships but having a calm and secure feeling with in myself~
Do people talk about me? Yes~  I know that there are those who enjoy judging me~  I don't mind people and the way they think~ All I do mind is that I am going i...

Can you have Peace in the midst of a Storm~

The answer is, Yes you can~  One of my most favorite things to do is to walk outside when it is about to storm~  Have you ever tried to see the beauty of a storm~ The rushing of the wind goes through hair it brings with it a story~ The voice of the wind is strong and shows you its power.
The beauty of the sky as it lights up, showing you the wonders of the God of Universe~ The peace you can feel goes through body like a bolt of lightening~ The loud sound of the thunder lets you know i...

Do I like being Poor?

The answer,
 
NO, but in a way YES.  Of course I would love to have the money to sit down and pay bills on time and have extra to share to others. But, I have learned that to be rich in heart is far more rewarding than being rich in money.
It amazes me on how people that do not have money still reach out to help another one that is struggling. I really never want to be rich with money because I feel that it would change me.  That I would think, hey this is my mon...

Unemployment has Stopped~

Well, if things were not already tough enough now they are really tough.  I am already going in so many directions and now I have to double my outlook on what needs to be done to keep above water~
All those who are affected by the change in unemployment I want you to know that I wish you all the best and hope that things will be well for you and your families.  I am one of those families and now more than ever determined to make the best of it and will continue to go forward
 
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