Where have I been?

I am sorry that I have been gone but I had to get away~  In the past couple of weeks I have been fighting major depression~  A time to try and fight for life.
 The bills, people just about everything is wearing me out~ I am doing my best to get better but it is a long battle ahead.  I even gave up on one of my shows that I was supposed to set up at because I was just to burned out.
 I have been doing shows about every 2 to 3 days.  I clean my cousins house. I took care of an elderly woman that just recently passed away at the hospital and so now I work for her husband helping him and trying to sell his items for him.  I home school my daughter.  I average 4 to 5 hours a sleep a night. Clean home, take care of garden, feed and water the animals.
I just made August 1st mortgage payment but barely made it in time. I cannot pay both that are due at the same week of the month and so this one I have to pay just in time for it to be due again.  I asked them if they would change the date but they would not help.  So I have to pay a late charge every month.
I am trying to stay in the game of life but it has been very difficult latley.  All I see anymore is make money and as fast as I get some it goes to another bill.
My first mortgage is now dowon to around $7,000 to pay it off.  The winter is coming and I am not sure what I am going to do~
So journal, help me keep going~  Depression is not a thing to enjoy.
 
August 29, 2010
10:49 AM