My whiney day don't read if your having a bad day!

Ok I have been through it lately but I am not giving up just whinning I think that is ok from time to time and better to write it here than go around whining to everyone. 
 
Lets see mon and tues we went to a wake a funeral for my husbands cousin who they say shot himself but it was in the stomach so its a little weird.  They are still investigating so I don't really know.  That was very hard on my husband and his family therefore hard on me. 
Yesterday, Tuesday I went into my purse to get some money for gas and all my money was gone $560.00 bill money just gone and bills were due today.  My husband was mad and said I was irresponsible because I had that much in my purse.  I was going to the bank on Saturday and didn't make it on time.  I didn't have a chance to go back with the funeral and all.  So I am digging through my purse and my money, 3 months or written perscriptions and my Drivers license all missing.  I was in tears my husband wouldn't talk to me and well I felt horrible and guilty for letting that happen.
Third and this one is difficult because I can not spread her private personal stuff around but she may be moving in with us on an already tight budget due to having some personal problems in the state she lives in.  I love her but we have our problems, I am hoping this will go well and we will find that we can love each other and get along.  Please pray for this.  I want her to love me and I do love her.  My other step daugther and I are very close and we raised her but this one just wouldn't accept me and her parents had been divorced for about 10 years before we even met so I don't understand why.  I am telling myself not to push her and let it happen but I am one of those people that just has to have people like me I guess.  I know that is stupid but it hurts that someone I love a part of the man that I love just doesn't like me, well that really hurts.  I am not giving up though she is 19 I will give her space and maybe I will grow on her.  I hope and pray it works, not to mention its really hard to live in the same house with someone who doesn't like you.  uuuuggghhh  God give me strength.
Well about a month ago I decided I wanted to get myself organized and decided to get an organizer and write down all my bills, when they are due and how much.  I have address, phone numbers all that stuff in this book what a great idea right?  That is so what I was thinking and also I have a list of b-days so I can send a card its not much but its just so people know that they are remembered.  I think that is important.  Well God must have been thinking that was a good idea for me because today my phone broke with all my numbers in it and everything.  But good thing I wrote them all down in the book so that is good.  I went to look in the book and low and behold in an envelope was the bills and the money in another envelope was my perscriptions and DL (u have to show the pharmacy your dl whenever you have perscriptions filled.) So I found the money and the other missing things thank God. 
I know I should be soooo happy and I am but at the same time I feel so stupid.  How could I have forgotten that and I still don't remember putting it there.  I don't know I think I am losing my mind or something. 
Damian starts school on the 14th of August and the tuition is due he needs a new suit which I put on layaway  so much is going on I just feel so overwhelmed and lost.  I am also mad that my husband was so mean about the whole thing.  Don't get me wrong I know it was a lot of money and it was stupid.  He tought someone stole it and so did I, we searched everywhere except where I put it.  Thank God we I didn't blame anyone and had faith.  He on the other hand had a million theories of who it was.  I am also upset because he is still being a butt about it.  I get it, I was stupid but I am not a child he doesn't have to punish me and I found the money give me a break.  Someone please tell me is he right to carry this on and am I just irresponsible?  I don't even trust my own judgement anymore.  I paid the bills with cash and got that done but I really feel just stupid I guess.  I don't know and now I am crying again.  I guess I am just irresponsible and now I am blubbering like a baby. 
Thanks for listening.  you guys are always here no matter what. 
hugs,
Michelle (Michie)