trying to stay positive

trying to stay positiveWell I am trying but its getting so close and the more I try to stay positive the harder it gets.  I guess I am having an off day.  I am stressed and don't know where to turn.  I don't want to face my son with dissapointing news and the thought of him having to either go back to that horrible shcool or going to live with his dad is breaking my heart.  I don't want to lose my son to that school or have him over 2 hours away from me.  I know that is selfish but its true.  I also know that moving again rather it be schools or homes it will affect him negativly and I don't want that either.  Its like trying to climb a mountain with the world on your back, you just keep getting knocked down.  Gosh I really am whiney but I just can't help it.  I messed up and updated my account here and that set me back to review so no one can see my request or donate, my things on bonanzle are not selling, I had to refund 36.00 and with shipping ending up being like 40.00 so I feel like I am in a tunnel with no light at the end.  I know how that poor cat must have felt being dumped off like that.  Poor baby.  Things just have to give there has to come a point where things just have to change.  I don't know but it feels good to just vent.  Sorry I am trying to stay positive but I guess we all have our moments.

I just put up a message on the giving board at ebay I don't know what will happen.  I hope something I am trying any and everything at the moment.