I guess its all about me and who I am. LOL or what has made me who I am.

I guess its all about me and who I am. LOL or what has made me who I am.I have never journaled before but I thought I would give this a try.  Now everyone might get a chance to know me a little better.  I am a mom of two boys they are my world.  They have brought sunshine, laughter, tears, joy, and emotions I can't even begin to explain into my life.  Without them I would cease to exist.  I worked for a grocery store for ten years and raised my kids basically on my own with no child support.  My ex was a drug addict but has joined AA and has finally started being a part of the kids life still not getting child support but him getting clean had made things so much easier on the kids that it makes it really hard to complain about that.  They needed him so bad, they needed to know they were loved by both parents as every child should know. 
Well in October I went out of work on Disability and I was recently approved for SSD which is going to be a great help I will start receiving benefits in May for April.  I could use the money now but hey atleast I was approved so many have to appeal and get lawyers.  I was approved in less than a month so that was great.
Then we have the other part of me.  I am married to a wonderful man who is great to me and my children.  I worry about him because he has so much stress on him.  He works 7 days a week trying to keep up with the medical bills, the house bills, the car note.  Everything has fallen on him but he stays strong and is a great man.  He got transfered in Nov.  with only 3 days notice and had to move to a differnt state while I got our home ready for sale and found us a home to rent.  Well the house didn't sell yet and its killing us financially.  We finally just said to heck with it.  We can't rent it we can't sell it, we are going to have to let it go back to the bank.  So we are waiting on that ball to drop as we speak.  This economy is so scary right now.  I hope things change soon.
Now I guess you are wondering what brought me here?  Well when we moved my youngest son who has brittle bone disease, aspergers syndrom and other medical problems was going to stay with his dad.  I didn't really like that idea but he has adjustment disorder and his dad is clean and in AA now so I agreed.  Well I found the house to rent and then about 3 days before we moved he changed him mind and decided to come with us.  I was so happy but I hadn't checked into schools so that was a problem.  The public school here is a nightmare.  You have to see to believe. Metal detectors, police, fights, federal desegration, changing IEP's to fit him to the school rather than to fit his needs, drug deals on the corner, its located in a crack neighborhood.  I tried everything I could to get him into what they call a county school here.  They have city and couty schools and they hate each other for some reason.  Well my son is a minority here and he has disabilities so that pretty much meant money to them and they refused to release him.  I fought and fought but they would not give in.  The day I saw the drug deal was just ehe last straw it sent me to look at private schools and other alternatives.  I found a chirstian School that is great.  They even have elevators for times when he just can't do the stairs due to broken bones.  Not to mention have you ever seen kids stampeeding down stairs in a school scary.  The public school only had stairs and he had to use them.  I was literally afraid everyday and he was picked on and tormented because of his differences.  I have never seen anything like that before.  My son used to love school but since being here it was aweful.  Every morning was a kicking, screaming, yelling, crying, begging match he totally hated it and couldn't adapt.  I couldn't stand seeing him like that.  So when I found the Christian School and they were able to meet his needs I was elated.  The problem was they wanted 1000.00 for him to attend.  I came home and put a wish on WUAH to see if I could get some help and I did one of the wish ambassadors was able to call the school and get the payment lowered to 650.00 plus clothes and a suit for Fridays and she got them to allow him to start on Monday the 6th of April and we haven't even paid yet.  They gave us till the 15th I don't know what I will do if we can't get the money I praying and trying to give it to God. 
He went to meet the headmaster (doesn't that make you think of Harry Potter?) lol and tour the school.  He loved it.  Everyone one was so nice to him.  The headmaster had made the aware of the situation and they are being extreamly accomodating.  The kids were friendly, the teachers were friendly and the staff was friendly.  I finally found a place where he can fit in again.  Now comes the hard part paying for it.  But I know I will find an angel somewhere that will help us.  I know God is sending us in the right directions.  
Thanks for listening and learning about my family.  God Bless