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Biography
Here is my story...
Nobody is perfect, and I know this because I'm far from perfect, and tho I may have thought someone could be defined as such at one point, I learned that perfection doesn't exist in real life...
But, WE ARE ALL BEAUTIFUL!
( I check my bootie in the mirror too!)
I grew up in a small town in Pennsylvania, and I've come to realize there's actually some parts of PA that nobody's even heard of...
I was born poor, but we had enough "cha-ching" to manage a place to live, eat, go to school, and all that jazz...
When I was in 3rd grade, It was almost recess time at the end of the day...I had this strange feeling come over me...I just didnt feel right at all....I raised my hand to go to the nurse because I felt a strange need to lay in bed....or lay down in general....she denied my request and told me school was nearly over and that I would be home soon....I felt really dizzy and put up with the last half hour of school...My mom walked me home from school and on the way I explained to her what had happend and she told me to lay on the couch when I got home...All I remember is blacking out and waking up in the hospital....I was out cold for a looooong time....I dont remember exactly how long....I was diagnosed with neurofibromatosis....They told me that after puberty, there was a possibility that I would get a brain tumor and die...ok, imagine someone telling you this at age 8....yeah....messed up.....I was in and out of the hospital running blood tests....getting brain scans....until I was 12yrs old... we went back to the hospital for a final exam and the doctors told my mom that I didnt have neurofibromatosis....that it was a mistake....I heard the whole thing and I was MAD! The doctor wanted to speak with me alone...I asked him why they wasted 4yrs of my life....he told me to calm down and he told me to listen very carefully, "Even tho we're not sure what made you sick, we want you to pay attention to your body and how it feels when you get sick...now, im not trying to scare you, but you're old enough to know now..." he explained to me what a tumor was and how to tell when I should worry...he told me to tell my mother if i ever get a headache in one section in my head or if i happend to forget where i am....he obviously said nothing to my mother about it and he should go back to school....if only i knew then what i know now, i would have talked to my mom about it....I tend to bottle things inside when im scared...
Through faith, learning, sharing, music, art, dance, poetry etc., I have overcome through so much pain to share my story with all of you... to show you anything is possible.
The donations are to help me so I can start saving money I work hard for at work for survival, aswell as my transition...
For those of you who dont understand what I'm going through, this should help some...
Coming Out as Transgender: A Lifelong Journey
From birth, most of us have been taught to think of ourselves as the gender that corresponds with our biological sex. Society strongly discourages us from identifying more with another gender. As a result, many of us are surprised and confused when it happens.
The process of coming out as transgender begins as you learn more about your true self and become comfortable with your own gender identity. It can be a confusing and frustrating time because there�s a lot of pressure from society, culture and family to adhere to traditional definitions of gender. Being transgender, however, is merely a way to express who you are, and the challenge is to accept this part of yourself.
For those who are transgender, coming out means acknowledging their gender identity � the internal sense of being male or female � and then determining how to express that identity. Transgender people must also decide when and how to share with others the way they understand their gender.
�There is no one way to be transgendered,� says Jamison Green, female-to-male transsexual activist and author. �Some of us just want to alleviate our body and gender misalignment and experience life as �ordinary� men and women.�
Some transgender people know from an early age that they cannot live as the sex they were assigned at birth and find ways to express their conflicting gender identity. Many others, however, struggle to adhere to expected gender roles well into their adult and sometimes senior years. Whenever or however a person comes out, it is important to remember that gender can vary and many people don't fit neatly into one narrow definition.
Figuring out who you are can be very difficult � and it can take time. Remember, however, that most of the negative stereotypes of transgender people you may have heard are based on erroneous or inadequate information. And what you need are facts.
Whether or not they identify as transgender, many gay, lesbian, bisexual and straight people transgress traditional gender roles. A straight female with short hair who is often called �sir,� a boyish-looking lesbian whose presence in the women�s restroom is questioned, a gay teen who is scolded for �not acting like a man� � all face bias due to preconceived notions of gender. But the more people see how gender varies, the more people will embrace both their transgender brothers and sisters and the laws that treat them equally.
Because of societal restraints, being out as transgender is not always easy, but it�s also the only way to educate others about gender identity and expression. Facing possible rejection and even violence, transgender people must continue coming out to friends, family, co-workers and community members so that they can, in turn, become more accepting and supportive.
Taken From HRC Issues - Transgender
My Purpose
Is to be taken seriously.
I have dreams of becoming a father someday.
I just want to be who I've always been.
I want to feel the rain on my chest after surgery.
If this becomes possible, I can prove to others that anything is.
Recent changes in my life : Getting hit by a car and not seeing who hit me nearly crushed all my dreams...
I dislocated my left shoulder and needed an x-ray which wracked up the hospital bill to $2400!!!!
I dont make enough at work to cover everything!
Favorite board game Clue
What is most important thing in your life? Making people smile.
Pick five words that describe yourself : Funny, Kind, Caring, Honest, Friendly.
Can you juggle ? No
What is your favorite day? Any day that's relaxing.
What is your favorite season? medium weather.
What is your favorite meal? fruit.
What time do you wake up in the morning? either 9am or 1pm.
If you could have one super power, what would it be? The power to heal others.
Comedy or Horror? Comedy
If you could build a house anywhere, where would it be? Away from negativity.
What is your greatest ambition? Love, life, happiness.
Who is the person from you past you wish you could go back and talk to? My Brother.
What characteristics do you think you've inherited from your parents? Determination and hope.
What do you never leave home without? My back pack.
Who would you most like to meet? Happy people.
If you had a million dollars, what would you do with it? Use it for good...not blow it.
What is the most embarrassing thing youve ever done? Dressed like Morpheus from the Matrix in highschool and ran down the halls with my friend dressed like Neo...lol.
Hobbies and Talents : I write music and poetry whenever I can.
List achievements and any future educational plans : I hope to become legally male and put these fears behind me.
Photos Of Kydub
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Me and my cat, Tama. ^_^
I wish I could be like other guys...this is why I need the money...for surgery. My transition into my true self.
a most recent photo of me. Jan,2010.
This is an old photo of me at the end of 2007. Even then I was reaching out for help...I need it most right now.
I'm gonna tell a bit of my life story...some stuff left out, if i forgot to mention anything, im sorry, im just tired... any questions, just ask... here it is: Nobody is perfect, and I know this because I'm far from perfect, and tho I may have thought someone could be defined as such at one point, I learned that perfection doesn't exist in real life... I grew up in a small town in Pennsylvania, and I've come to realize there's actually some parts of PA that nobody's even heard of... I was born poor, but we had enough "cha-ching" to manage a place to live, eat, go to school, and all that jazz... When I was in elementary school, I had no friends in the beginning...I was the classic shy outcast that never spoke unless spoken to, and barely cracked a smile to anyone...I was constantly teased and taunted, for what reason? I honestly still dont know, but it made me feel so small and unwanted in the world... The only friend I had was my younger sister, Ashly.. >>>
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Medical Treatment
Disabled
January 19, 2010
Personal Fundraiser
Medical Treatment
Description: I've already applied for health insurance, and though I am very low income, they were
very unresponsive.
I dont make enough money or get enough hours to be able to save money on the side.
The debt of $2400 is definately holding me back and causing me more pain.
I would like to be able to see a doctor without fear of being charged an arm and a leg.
I need this money for my transition: Blood work, surgery, etc.
My progress:
This is a one time only expense assistance request .
My message:
Supporting Documentation: KyDub has the following documentation
Progress:
$ (0%)
Still needed: $10000
Request was active: 561 days
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